Dear T,

With your vacation we missed today's appt, but we'll meet tomorrow, which is good. While I held it together Sunday, Monday, and this morning (I'm proud of myself for this), I felt apart this afternoon... I miss you and I need you. I have an email all set to go but I want to make sure to send it late enough tonight so that you won't get it until the morning - I promised to you and myself that I'd not contact you on your vacation days.

Tomorrow at 3:15 seems eons away... I wish that I could text you now. This is what I'd say: "I hope that you're having a good vacation and have a safe flight back. I missed you today and I really need one of your hugs. I love you." Then you'd respond: "Vacation was nice. Sending you 'trust' and 'I'm right here' hugs... See you tomorrow!" But why does typing this out not help me?

Ugh, wish I could go to sleep now and wake up at 2pm and then I could see you right away... And I'm not going to feel badly about this.

Love you.