Dear T,

I'm working so hard not to push send on that email... But I feel like I just need to send it now... If I do, I'm really sorry not to have kept my promise to you and me. I just NEED you. I need to hear your voice and feel our connection. Dammit, when will I get better and be less dependent? But I can't get mad at myself... I just miss you - why did you have to go away? says the selfish child part...

I love you and I'm sorry if I send the email before your vacation is over.