Lol that's funny but glad you didn't take it in a way of ok I'm gonna show her what I can really do.

I wish I had the guts to tell my T how I've been feeling but I'm scared. I have a session with her tomorrow evening & I'm laying here thinking what should I say. The crazy thing about it was after saying what she said...we were pulling zen cards & the one she pulled said she needed to apologize to someone. She turned to me & asked is there something I need to apologize to you about...I asked her did she think she needed to apologize to me about something & she replied she didn't know. All along in my head I'm saying hell yea you need to apologize to me.

When I went to inpatient for the 1st time a lady who was supposed to be supportive said that the people in there had "real" problems & that I wasn't like them...I didn't need to be there.