Jacko , it seems to me that you are obssessively thinking about that incident, why are you torturing yourself? You are concern about what people would think but they don't have to know everything you did or didn't in your past. Apparently you thnk you should have a be-lated punishment. When we are children or teenagers we are still dealing with impulse control issues. The younger the person the more impulsive he/she is. You wouldn't do it now, you are older and more mature now so you are different. You are putting too much weight on an incident from the past, instead of living your present and find your current value. Try to think more posivitively about yourself and focus on your future.