Thanks to all for your replies and positivity. For some unknown reason, the fact that I feel like i'm 'hiding' something really, really bothers me. I constantly think: "What if they knew what I did??! They wouldn't like me anymore, they'd think I'm disgusting and weird." Even though I was 12! I try to tell myself that I was 12, that I was a kid, that kids are kids and our actions as kids don't really matter as adults, providing we are normal adults. It seems that I can rationalize it properly, but it just doesn't stick. Any advice on how to make it stick?