fuzzy i am on this site way too often as well, i really have to get a life anyways I agree with you all...definitely don't trust the internet info. and you do need to have a therapist you feel comfortable with. i just fired mine b/c she was useless. finding a good one is a process sometimes. anyways i have been suicidal in the past and am finally feeling better. good luck with everything.
Take care,
Chrstiee