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Originally Posted by rebnsof
I know that he said that I'd be annoying as hell and that he would take all the s h i t I throw at him and help me, because it was the only way of solving my issues.
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My T warned me that would make me angry at some point. Not on purpose, just that it tends to happen and to be prepared for it. And that working through the feelings with him and coming out the other side would be very healing. I suppose in a way that just happened. I was beginning to really think terrible things about him. They had been building up over the past year and I was getting so anxious and blocked in therapy. My rational side told me it was just my own paranoia talking and that they were all stupid complaints. But they STILL had to be dealt with because I couldn't let them go. So I wrote every grievance I had out on paper and went through them one by one with him. Therapy is going much, much better now.
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Originally Posted by rebnsof
I am not obsessed with him, I am obsessed with the therapy. I don't know what he thinks, but he told me he wants to get closer because I think he feels that I am pushing him away.
He said people with BPD had that kind of relationship with their therapists and that we had to go throught that.
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I was obsessed with my therapy too...in a bad way...as in 'THIS ISN'T WORKING'. I was very close with my T in the beginning and I think for me, it is absolutely a requirement. But somehow I managed to lose that 'closeness'. Seems to be a pattern for me IRL so I suppose that shouldn't have come as a surprise. Slowly now, it is coming back. I am relaxing more in therapy. So - yes, I would agree with your T, being close with them is very important. Mine didn't tell me that - it just happened naturally and I figured it out on my own then he told me it is one of the key elements of successful therapy. I agree with him - especially for people with BPD.
i highly recommend you visit the psychotherapy forum here and post there as well. I found it invaluable.