Thats a hard question. I wish I had some useful advice but I don't. I think I know how you feel. I've got dreams that I don't know how to accomplish too. I want to go back to school to be a nurse practitioner but I don't know how to get myself to the point that I can...mentally or finacially. I would love to have some good friends, my support system is just my husband. My family lives too far away to be of any help. Stability would be nice but that seems out of reach at the moment. I'm 45 years old and I feel like I've gotten nowhere and I'm too old to try anything but I don't want to give up on my dreams and I don't think you should give up on yours.