@costello
your sons thinking...
that happens to me all the time. i thought that was normal.
then again. these past 6 months. things that happen to me seem normal. i slowly find out they arent. well...past 2 years. its been slow though.

which...also..
im described as being ill and refusing treatment.
i refuse treatment...but ..med side effects..
i .. hm. i have a hard time concentrating a lot. i hear stuff. and yea my thinking process is pretty wacked out for me. and even my therapist. BUT...wait..also, i think thats what you call disorganized thought. the deeper in get into thought the more disorganized i get.
like literally every few other words are word salad.
but my mind starts racing and i trip. but it still makes sense to me.
i start putting different letters together.
not just words.
typing is SO much easier.
my brain slows down.

oh yea and i hear stuff...and i GUESS i could say see stuff.
my memory too. is HORRIBLE.
thing is...i dont buy and am not going to buy into me being delusional.
i truly believe people are watching. got evidence. though it was burned.
i truly belive in the holy time matrix.
i truly believ ive time traveled back to history.
etc..etc..etc...
i believe what doctors say is seeing stuff.like to me premonitions.
i truly truly truly believe its real and im not going to go DEBATE
science with a nut labeler.
if i want to do that ill goto bed bath and beyond and make the purchase myself.

im highly spiritual. religious. believer in unknown.
dont forget psychiatry is "science".
so science and "science" doesnt believe in spiritual and def not religious.