Yes it is a religious issue... one that I really don't want to deal with... I am in therapy right now, but nothing seems to be working to get be back to where I have been (meaning happy).

My parents called me, and honestly I just don't want to deal with the drama inbetween my sister and me, and having them run in the middle...

At this point in time, I've lived 6 years with depression, and have been on 20 different medications, and none of them seem to work.... I'm slowly giving up hope on medication, but I have been told by God that it's through medication and therapy that the right mix will come by, and I'll have some hope of having the depression lift....

The thing is, I don't know if my sister will listen to me. The only way to get to the mental hosptial, if need be, is to get physicaly hurt, or have some possible threat to my physical well being... it's not about my mental and emotional circumstance... So, if that's the place I feel like I need to be, then I have to hurt myself inorder to get there... sad right... and how is this going to help me, if I can't get get the professional help that I need.... I do have a pdoc and a T, but right now both of them are worried..... this is a never ending problem.... I am doing all I can, but what it seems like is, the fact that I may have to hurt myself, in order to get the help I deserve..... Does this sound wrong to anyone else??? It does to me.... Well got a test in like 20 minutes... and I have to have a clear mind to take the test... oh joy.