last night i was thinking how
things are really going backwards in therapy
that i'm going back to where i was months ago
reliving a lot of those thoughts and feelings
getting lost in the pain of that again
tearing myself apart and getting upset with t
becoming consumed with things i'd worked out
i thought it was real
that it was where i was
it feels real
it feels like where i am
now i'm not sure
I think maybe it's ... that there are things i'm trying to avoid
so instead of feeling through what i'm trying to avoid
and talking about it
i'm going backwards to where the pain is very painful but also familiar
???
can anyone understand that?