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Originally Posted by shoez
No..shes actually also a director of the whole program;..and has an advanced degree. has lots of years of experience and worked in hospitlsand stuff from wht i read..definitely not a student T at all...
i just.. feel really messed up
i think..she wants to putme on meds...and thts y idk...she asked me in one of our past sessions....if ide be willing to see a dr. for meds ..
meds scare me  ..
mayhbe thts it...idk..........just feel liike *****.
part of me knows i need her...and partof me thinks its too much ..
she doesnt seem incompetant tome....but i feel liek im took much..ill take up too much time...ill be too much..im to stupid or idk..
i waste time in T a lot cuzi try to rememebr things and i cant..
just feel like im too much ofa waste of time..too much of a waste waste waste |
Shoez, I promise that you will not get kicked out of college. This is from someone who attempted suicide 3 times during college - which the Deans knew about - and is now a college professor and familiar with confidentiality rules.
Regarding supervisors, it's completely normal for even the head of a college mental health clinic to have a supervisor. I wouldn't worry about this at all. The bigger the bureaucracy, the more supervisors, and the privacy and ensuring that no mistakes are made (i.e., getting other opinions) laws that universities are subject to are huge.
Lastly, you are not a waste of time. I promise you. She wouldn't offer to help if she didn't want to. Many of us write on here that we're too much... so there are lots of therapists out there who have clients that they believe that they are too much! College is tough and stressful and it's GREAT that you're reaching out for some help.
Meds are not the end of the world... If you had diabetes, would you take insulin? It's the same type thing - if there is something that could help you (and taking meds now doesn't mean that you'll take meds forever), perhaps you could just meet with the doctor and learn more?
Good luck. Know that you're not at all alone and thanks for posting here!
