The thing is, I don't know if my sister will listen to me. The only way to get to the mental hosptial, if need be, is to get physicaly hurt, or have some possible threat to my physical well being... it's not about my mental and emotional circumstance... So, if that's the place I feel like I need to be, then I have to hurt myself inorder to get there... sad right... and how is this going to help me, if I can't get get the professional help that I need.... I do have a pdoc and a T, but right now both of them are worried..... this is a never ending problem.... I am doing all I can, but what it seems like is, the fact that I may have to hurt myself, in order to get the help I deserve..... Does this sound wrong to anyone else??? It does to me.... Well got a test in like 20 minutes... and I have to have a clear mind to take the test... oh joy. _________

Both of your docs are worried? Is it because none of the meds work or is it another reason? YES, it sounds wrong that you would have to hurt yourself to get to
psych help. It also seems wrong, and I say this as a Christian, that God told you to get on meds. My way of understanding this, is the psychiatrist does the diagnosing
and not the patient. God did give us medical people to rely on. Hope you find help soon, you sound almost hysterical here. I'm sorry this is happening and it has to be
pretty annoying when you are trying to keep your grades up and stuff. I hope you find relief soon. You must be outside the USA, because what I understand here, you can put yourself into a psych ward at your own bequest.
hugs, bj