That's been me a lot lately as well; that finances seem to really get in the way of therapy. Then I go and end up thinking things like how much crying just cost me or getting lost in my thoughts; and it isn't helpful. Not sure what the solution is because like you I'm paying myself and it's way more than I can really afford so I really understand the excuses. I'm glad you are working on what you get from it; keep going with that

Voids aren't fun ever either; remember there are lots of people here for you