Thank you for the responses and hugs. They mean a lot to me!
I finally emailed my T to talk about the session and how good it was! I thanked her again for the heart and for her understanding about the money I owe her. I always analyze my sessions, probably too much, but it's what I like to do.

There was something I told her that I think is totally TMI. I've been sort of obsessing about it. I keep bringing it up in emails and in my sessions. When I told her (I can't say what it is--too ) again, she said something reassuring to me like it was no big deal. I realized that I need to keep telling her this because I never could tell my Mom anything I needed to, so I never got the reassurance that I was "okay". Having my T accept what I told her is such a huge relief. It's equivalent to my telling her "I'm bad" and she saying "no you're NOT". I don't think she realized the importance of, and why I keep telling this one thing, and neither did I. But it was the preteen knowing she could tell her "Mom" anything and be comforted. It was what I needed. I think next session I will work on my acceptance of myself regarding this. I see how it's all related!!