You deserve all the hugs the world has to offer. Please do try to be patient with yourself. At one point in my life I felt very similar but then, long story short, I did get married and have a kid. You are in therapy - that's brave and fantastic. Yes, you could get creative with becoming a mom- it is available. Try not to rush, my friend. Give therapy time to work and overcome some of your issues. You may surprise yourself and life may look completely different in 6 months. Use this site to reach out and PM if you need a friend.
dazeofdolphins

P.S.- where in England are you from? My best friends live in West Chiltington in West Sussex. I love England!!!