For me, this is all kind of like "performance anxiety" and the more I think about it, the worse it seems to get.

Trying too hard, for me, can exacerbate the problem....I don't know if I spelled that right, but I think you may get the point?

I feel that my therapist DOES show frustration, which makes matters much worse. And I feel that my T could be helping me open up and chooses not to, which makes matters much much worse....these are reasons that I am contemplating quitting.

...which is why I enjoyed the post about upending the process. For me, breaking out of these cycles takes a very "out of the box" kind of thinking, which I think was manifested in that post.....