The CDC has said the average weight gain for someone stopping smoking is 15 pounds. That was true for me.

I mention it so you don't have to beat up on yourself. Also, so you have a little "math" to work with!

The psychological dependence upon tobacco is highly underrated. It's really important to delve into this. I think this is what people refer to when they say "oral fixation". Maybe some research might help make sense of that and maybe you'll get some tips in the process.

In regards to oral fixation/psychological dependence for me...I sat down and made a list of (made many lists - ) ways I depended upon the "feel" of cigarettes. ...feeling it between my fingers, flicking ashes away, feeling it between my lips, sucking it, curling my lips around it. These things were part of my "love affair". These things had been part of my life for 35 years! Divorce is never easy.

I cut a straw to length that was about the right thickness around and smoked the heck out of that thing!!! It helped me.

Hang in there, you can do this!