I hit the 6 month mark recently & I was just like that. Go in have lil chit chat to blow through time. But then I'd go home, feel like crap, write frustrated emails to T, come on here for support almost to take place of my T! I'm like this is ridiculous! So I wrote a lonnnggggggg long 'list' of stuff that needs to be worked on (3pages) lol and relunctly sent it....god I was so scared. But I just took that leap of faith and did it. I needed to do something somewhat drastic on my part or I may have well just quit. No point to go to shoot the **** ya know.
Anyways were still working in the list. I trust him a bit more esp since he has disclosed more bout himself to me too. I'm not sure I'll ever walk in there, feel I trust him 100%, feel he cares 100%, but I know he does enough for me to start opening up. I mean this therapy is for ME. I'm paying him. I need to do something, push myself sometimes to help myself as uncomfortable as that may be sometimes