((((((Purple Heart)))))))
I am so sorry that you are going through this difficult process of realizing how some of you issues came about. I hope you are working with a therapist to help you properly grieve this and then heal and allow yourself to re-establish yourself. Take time to self sooth and I will pray for you to have faith that you can truely get beyond this and give yourself permission to recover and be that good person you so deserve to be.

((((Hugs)))))
Open Eyes