I saw T for 2 hours...my session ran over by about 30 minutes.

It was hard, but good.

It took a long, long time to get grounded at the end, and maybe that's why the session went for so long. Maybe T wanted to make sure I was okay to drive home...I was WAY dissociated for a lot of the session. Anyhow, at the end, I asked him if he would walk outside with me. I've never been outside of the room T works in with T. He said yes and we went outside together and stood there for a few minutes. I can't remember what we talked about, but I remember him being outside with me, and it sort of made a little bridge of connection between the safety of his office and the outside world where I live. Like, I experienced being with T out here in the world - he's real, the safety is real, it doesn't just exist in that room.

It actually helped a lot.

I decided to take the day off, and spent the day writing and reading and resting. I feel SO tender and vulnerable, and I just want to make sure I stay okay.

So far, so good, I think.