My T session last night was some what draining but somewhat relieving.
We disussed my issues of thinking how the abuse was my fault and how I cannot steer away from that belief.
T gave a journaling assignment for me to write about why I believe it was my fault.
I am trying to work on so much hurt and anger.
He robbed me of so much back then...and it still affects me to this day. And, I hate him for it!

Trauma Recovery work is grueling.
I want it to be over but I know that if I don't keep fighting for my right to feel peace then I will always suffer and be at his mercy.