What you are asking about I know is very frustrating. Not knowing where to turn or who to turn to. It's hard. I come here for times like that. I will talk to someone I really trust, who I know will be kind and will care, but I may only "hint" about the problem to start things off. I'm in kind of a phase right now where I don't know if my life will ever change and if I should just give up trying to change those parts. It makes me very unhappy to think about these things. Some things are hard to even talk to other people about. I am glad to have the internet and DocJohn's forums available. It gives me a connection to other people and other thoughts and ideas. Sometimes when I search information or look up something specifically, I might come across an organization or something that will be able to help me in some way, too.