Thanks for your words of wisdom peeps!
This is something i need to work on hard out in therapy- not to give up when the going gets tough. It's just i've been in depression mode for many years of my university life and i'm just wondering how to get out of it. I am going to keep bringing it up in therapy and monitor it i suppose because otherwise i certainly won't be going nowhere with a capital n. I just feel so totally pressured (as everyone does), I'm doing a course that's really hard out- it requires studying like all the time, assessments all the time, and i just have the added thinking that everything i do has to be brilliant and that i have to be highly motivated all the time. It's a very horrible corner to be in. I want to finish the thing i'm doing so badly and i don't see how dropping out of it completely will help. I would just start another degree and continue with the same thinking and i would be no better. This is something i need to get through for myself. I feel that i do have a very good brain and it definitely needs to be put to good use- but it's just the thinking that i have that divides me and doesn't allow me to get over the bridge i need to get over! I'm hoping that therapy can change this thinking- and even if therapy can't change this thinking i hope it can help me with continuing with things even if i can't finish to the level i want to. I must sound like such an uptight person. I am in this particular area of my life but otherwise pretty easy-going. Which sucks really.
Chow for now peeps. Loven listenin to yas
-Sezzie-