I am sort of reverting back to the feeling where i feel that t is not on the exact same page as me- but she's making some more headway! I often feel that i have to explain myself over again to her. We are often at odds with each other. I tell her when i feel that she's making generalisations and assumptions but it often feels like i'm having to do so much work to justify who i am. I'm pretty clear about who i am and what my problems are, I just feel that she's viewing me differently. I feel that she's assessing me wrong. On Monday i have an appointment and this is what we're principally going to work out. i feel that i'm going through a quarter life crisis and through a period of depression but she feels i have something else- which doesn't fit with how i feel about myself. I often feel like i should get someone new because the problems that i struggle with the most aren't being addressed and they seem to be shoved under the carpet. I feel like it's going to be very hard for me to get better with things in this way. I feel that she's being very hypocritical in expecting me to have an open mind when her mind is completely closed about what my situation is. HELPIES. I've been communicating that i feel this way with her many times over and seemingly to no avail. I'm hoping desperately that we can work out the correct treatment plan for me and come to some concensus. I do feel that she could be helpful, and i do acknowledge my faults to her, but we just got to work more in synergy!!! I feel that i will give it my best shot again to try the therapy for a few weeks more, before giving it the flick. I don't think i'm perfect or anything (far from it!!!!!) but the things we seem to work on in therapy aren't applicable to the things that i need to work on. I just leave feeling that it is not going to get me to where i need to be!

-Sezzie-

-Sezzie-