Have you done any reading about attachment styles? What you describe, and what you write in your email, sound like characteristics of a preoccupied/insecure attachment. (I'm the say way with my T, btw.) It's been helpful for me to learn a little more about attachment so that I have some context for the way I act with my T and other people in my life. Not that intellectual understanding is the end all be all, obviously, but sometimes it can help to shed some light on things.