I did something earlier today which in retrospect probably wasn't a great idea but I was checking a mostly no longer used email account to make sure there was nothing important there. Anyway, I saw the folder that had some old emails from my first T and got sidetracked reading a few of them. The one that really stood out was one she sent before she even knew me when we were setting up our first session. It's nearly nine years old now and was an email explaining what kind of work she did with clients. Describing how a big part of her work was helping clients uncover the lies they'd grown up with and learning the truth and walking in that. She also said how often people didn't change; that they stayed in the places they were at and held on to the lies tightly because it was familiar to them. All this time later and ... I don't know how to let go of the lies because they still feel so real to me; I don't want to not walk in the truth I want to walk in it and I'm not and don't know how to get there