Never. Mind. Clearly, I mustn't be bipolar, I must be BPD, because obviously I seem to have abandonment issues!! As much as I try to rationalize that:

1. Your email might have gone down, or
2. You're not checking it because maybe you're sick or something like last week

I'm thinking it's definitely:

3. You're not answering me because you think I've gotten clingy and annoying and dependent, I'm emailing you too much, and you want to teach me a lesson, get me to back the **** off, or just plain put me off therapy altogether because you don't want to treat me. I scared you away. You wanted me to open up, I did, and look what happened.

Please tell me I'm wrong.

The crazy thing? I am THIS close to emailing you this!! But I don't know what would hurt more - if I was wrong and I just ruined our relationship because I didn't trust you because I'm still that cynical ***** I always was, or if I'm right and this is a mind game, or if again you don't reply and then I get stuck with this feeling until Wednesday, wondering.

ETA: The reply helps a little, but I guess 'wondering' it is.