Thanks Notz for that

For the fixation-- Yeah I think I will try to chew gum again- I did that from Middle to high school, then when cigs got into the picture- no more gum.....but will try that again, it may not be entirely appropriate at work- these people can get odd... but oh well.

Awe the love affair- I know, I was like my friend is gone... where is my friend... but I need to remember this is a friend that is a toxic friend... true to the word toxic. It sucks to lose my friend, but it will be for the best, and perhaps i can make a new friend like walking more, outside on the hills, or something

Thanks for the support tooo it is tough but I think if i keep the mind set (for me atleast) that I am tired of being sick and cigs were the main cause for it, maybe I can do this-- ?