hello Amanda!! I am Amanda too and I also have BPD. However I am 43 (almost) and I am not going to sugarcoat things and say things will magically improve for you overnight because they won't, but what I CAN tell you is that with the right help and education and the right medication it is possible to live a fairly stable and non-chaotic life with this poxy disorder. I don't have any friends either apart frm my long-suffering partner of 18 years and my dog. What i have learnt to do is accept myself for what I am and learn to like myself and be a friend to myself. In time you too will learn this. take care of yourself.