Hi failingtoLive, Welcome first of all to PC. I am not a great one for advice but I can offer hugz and an ear. There are some really fabulous people here, most can probably say they are or have been where you are. I myself suffer from Chronic Depression, Social Anxiety Disorder and a severe lack of trust in People, even those close to me. This place I have found this to be a great place to just write everything I am feeling down and post. I just write here to get it out where I know it/I won't be judged, even if no-one reads it (which they do and then they will respond, encourage & empathize) but its off my mind and I can read it and realize that its genuine as its not just echoing through my head & others here can make sense of it too. A Therapist really is a great idea too to help You. I love mine but it took me three tries to get the right one, he is Wonderful and I am dealing better than ever, without meds now for 3yrs & that works for Me. As for the Ex so sorry that you are going through that, a break up is never easy. I hope that you get what you need from here to help you get past the hurt.
Sorry for the novel just wanted to be open about me a little to help you feel safe and at home here. Looking forward to seeing you more on here.
Huge Hugz
Nams