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Originally Posted by mandamoo42
hello Amanda!! I am Amanda too and I also have BPD. However I am 43 (almost) and I am not going to sugarcoat things and say things will magically improve for you overnight because they won't, but what I CAN tell you is that with the right help and education and the right medication it is possible to live a fairly stable and non-chaotic life with this poxy disorder. I don't have any friends either apart frm my long-suffering partner of 18 years and my dog. What i have learnt to do is accept myself for what I am and learn to like myself and be a friend to myself. In time you too will learn this. take care of yourself.
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Medication helps symptoms. There is no "chemical cure" for straight and forward BPD. Overnight? I've been in the system for 13 years. I think I'm only a tinsy bit beyond assuring me it will eventually get better, but not "overnight."
How can you love or even like someone you don't even know? I don't know what friends are. I had one once. For 13 years. She slept with my boyfriend of three years the entire time I knew him, gave me something, then married him a month after him and I broke up because I was "mean" all the time. The concept of a friend isn't real or comforting to me. I'd rather be alone then risk that again. And I know there are no good people in the world.
The second part of this diatribe response was a letter about how I dislike you...black and white black and white....which is probably because maybe I don't want to have the "you'll get better with the right skills" conversation. Screw the right skills. Deep breathing, telling people how I feel, and imagining my problems float away on leaves on a stream under a gnarled oak tree doesn't help anyone.