I don't think anyone was being malicious to you. They were just talking to you. You're in a "too smart for your own good" place right now, and it sounds like you have a lot of people around you who enable you. At this point, who could tell you anything? Venting is fine, but not taking constructive criticism is another. Sorry my blog didn't help, but...I don't think much has sunk in for you yet. You may have been around, but you're none the wiser for it. This is a kick in the pants. Take it, and thank us for it. We only want what is best for everyone here, including you. So quit having your pity party, get off the pot, and do something about it. Try...really try, and take a step down from the high horse and pedestal you've put yourself on, and get back down to reality. Do the work, and let it sink in, and put your guard down. I can understand you being in a mood, but snap out of it! And take a look at yourself!