hello.

I was doing my meditation yesterday and I realized something; had a breakthru.

I think a lot of my social phobia is from a feeling that ppl might "know something about me that is bad".

I realized now that came from a feeling of badness from being s*x*ally abused.

I know now that I am not bad. I was innocent, I was okay. And I still am.

It will take time to really incorporate this into my brain, but it is starting to happen.

Once I realize that I don't "have it coming" I think I won't be so scared of people.

Billi