I don't know if this might be triggering for some people.

I thought my Dr was going to refer me to CAMHS, which could take several months for them to see me, but it turns out I'm not. My mother got a phone call today from some people from Psy-something (we didn't hear it clearly) who are coming to our HOUSE. I am really worried, what if it turns into an interrogation? Why does there have to be two of them? Are they going to make me go to a hospital? I really don't know

But anyway, it has taken less than a week for them to get back to us, and usually I heard it takes more than a month. I know my Dr was concerned, but I didn't know it was this bad.

Also I know I should tell them everything to get a proper diagnosis. But are there some things that I should refrain from sayings? Like Fang (who really doesn't want me to tell anyone about, or the government from my world will find him). He can go through two personalities; Fang (bad/normal) and Knight (good). He told me all about him the other day, and the memory seems fuzzy. Anyway, he has told me to hang myself or terrible things will happen (parents dying etc) and I am so scared. I feel bad everyday because I get images of them in pain and suffering, and I can't do anything to stop it. I also see what is supposed to be my future (these actually sometimes comes true). Also the OCD intrusive thoughts are here a lot and it seems triggered. To be honest I just want to stuff myself with medications, at least then I'll be a little "normal".

I feel very suicidal a lot. But I'm scared of doing that..I couldn't do it to my family. Also I'm seeing random patches of colour everywhere. I put it down to wormholes from my world (I actually see random holes sometimes too).

But I don't think there is really much wrong with me. I know people wouldn't believe me when I talk about this stuff and just put it down to psychosis...

If I told them this would they put me in an institution??? I'm 15 in the UK btw...
If this is in the wrong forum then sorry.