Sorry I've kinda disappeared. Came down with a really bad stomach bug and I've just been struggling emotionally lately. I canceled my last therapy appointment and then when she called to reschedule I lied and told her I was doing fine so we rescheduled for two weeks from now. I wouldn't say I'm having hallucinations but I'm having really vivid violent thoughts that arn't going away, a lot of brief panic attacks, and I've been having trouble distinguishing some of my dreams from reality. I wish I could just curl up with a bunch of pills and sleep for awhile. I know I can't right now, so I've been slipping with my dieting and bindging on some chocolate. Lesser of two evils right now I guess. I've also had a lot of caffeine lately to keep me going. I should probably cut that down a little bit.