You know, you have made several refernces to God healing you, so I had to comment. I am reminded of the story of the man who was drowing, and a boat came by and said, "let us help you, get in the boat" and the man said, "No, God will save me." Next a heliocopter showed up and they said, "Let us help you, get in the basket and we'll pull you up" and the man said, "No, God will save me." Dude drowns, dies and goes to heaven. He is pissed, so he asks God, "WHY didn't YOU save me?" God rolls His eyes and says, "I sent you a boat AND a heliocopter, what else did you want?"

Your therapists job is NOT to be your buddy, your pal, your feel good companion or your best friend. They are paid to give you the truth and help guide you into finding your own path through this journey called life. I don't see what your T said as being mean or his celebrating your misfortune, but even sick, there is still a lot of life to live. When I was going through chemo, I often felt like giving up b/c there didn't seem to be a point. My T pointed out to me that there was a lot of life left for me. . .I hear a similar sentiment in your T's words.

Life is about perception hon. . .how do you perceive the world around you? Are you still a victim, helpless and unable to make your own way? Does everything that someone says push your buttons? If you perceive what your T said as mean or callous, then without confronting him about it, you really aren't going to have any peace and this little "burr" will grow and grow until it destroys the relationship. It seems to me that you are fortunate to have a T who cares about your quality of life.