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Originally Posted by Lauru
Dear T,
You know it's been on my mind for 2 months now. You know how tired I am of this all. You know it is specific and thorough and well thought out. You just don't know when. Well neither do I. I wonder if it will be sooner than I think? It is only a matter of time. I wish this suffering would end, or at least something would end. I'm tired. So very very tired. And no one can help me. No one.
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Lauru, I have been in a similar place. Totally thought out, detailed plan and a certainty that acting on that plan was just a matter of when. PLEASE, please, please know that there is help and there is hope. If your current therapist cannot help you, change therapists! I tried repeatedly to find a therapist to help, and actually gave up hope for a while of finding any help. It was someone who loved me who kept kicking me in the *** to try and convince me I didn't have to feel that way for the rest of my life and nagged me finally into trying yet ANOTHER therapist. Finally, that therapist helped me and I was feeling better within a matter of weeks. It was amazing, in retrospect, how fast I felt better. Drugs did not work for me. Analytic type therapy did not work for me. I saw a CBT therapist and he has helped tremendously. Please do not give up. Keep trying.
Do what you can do. Not what you can't.