My dear Shoez,

You are not a waste of time, and your T knows it. And so do I. Please do not leave T, please trust that your T knows how to take care of herself, and she will tell you when it gets too much, and she will find you help if that happens, but right now she sounds very far from that. Your T knows that you can get better, and that you will be okay, even if you're not okay right now. And so do I.

You sound like you're making real break throughs in session, and I'm really proud of you for that. I know it's really scary but you have to be brave and know that if you keep walking forward and being brave everything will get better. It might take time, and a lot of courage, but your T clearly knows you have what it takes, and so do I.

Why are you afraid of meds? Can you tell your T why you're afraid?

I've taken meds, as you know, and they have been alright. They may not be perfect, but I seem to be doing okay. And I doubt you would have to stay on them forever, like me. I think they might help you get back on your feet again, and then you can get off them and be able to walk on your own.

You're going to be able to fight through this Shoez. You're a strong girl. And we're all here for you, cheering you on.