Today has been so rubbish, I kind of feel to much but at the same time empty if that makes sense?

I think maybe I've gone it to panic mode. My nan died of huntingtons disease. It runs in families. If my nan was a Carrier then my dad has a 50/50 chance of getting and the same goes for me and my kids.

My uncle died last year some time, I had never met him, he had serious mental health issues and when my dad was contacted they said he had choked to death in the hospital ( endings of huntingtons) but he was not confirmed with the disease.

My cousin mental health issues. Missing and addicted to drugs, could this coils also be signs of the disease.

Now it has crossed my mind but refused to think about. But my mum mentioned it today!! Now I really scared depression can be the 1st signs of the inhuman disease. And they say that if you get tested it can bring on symptoms quick.

I'm so so scared I want to get the thoughts of this out my head. I can't cope.
I wish I was never told about my nans illness. There is no where I can hide from it if I had it.