My pdoc has come to the conclusion I'm pretty much not going to budge from the place I'm in and I've been in enough treatment I could write the program that I'm going to have to figure out my own me and best program that is going to be a solution that brings me out of this place that I'm in. She finally agrees no further tx is really going to benefit. My mind is set and somewhat standoffish and I'm going to have to search with in for awnsers and do intensive therapy with my lcsw to find the awnsers. it's a daily battle but I got to face this head on if I want a chance at any kind of life. The only thing that keeps me going is my pdocs faith in me I will overcome to the other side! I just wish I had that much faith in me. We shall see.