I can't find a job, id be considered a stay at home mom by default. My son has no respect for me and I feel like a parrot constantly repeating myself for him to do the little things like get dressed. I've lost my own identity, I'm bored and the frustration of failing has just sunk me low. I realized last night after re activating my Facebook I'm the root of others mocking, even my own mother had sarcasm all over her profile passively digging at my parenting, my not working, my hair color, (I was a strawberry redhead as a child so I just consider myself a red head, where she states I'm a blonde and literally mocked that on one of MY friends pics) I thought my mom and I were close but seeing the comments and such just made my walls go up & made me realize I can't trust a soul.
I feel useless, I don't feel anything other then apathy. Im merely a semi functioning human floating in the universe. I have no idea who I am and can't seem to care.