I would agree with what u say - u are so "scared" of having a panic attack, that you have one. That is absolutely 100% possible and normal with those of us with panic disorder........but in order for you to panic about having a panic attack - there is FEAR present. You FEAR having a panic attack. Does that clear up my stance on not being able to have one IF you want one - because to have one, there has to be fear present ? Just so you know, I would never laugh at someone who has panic attacks........they are horrible, and I wouldnt wish them on anyone !