You are not a bad person! Nor have you done anything wrong! Your just going through the same growing pains anyone with this disease goes through time to time! It's a setback! But you can prevail. I know how you feel. Eventhough I don't purge I try to hide my multiple symptoms and idiosyncrcies from my live in boyfriend. We are all human struggling with a Disease! Just like we were struggling with cancer or diabetes we have setbacks and have to find ways that are going to be manageable at this moment for the time or takes to take the next step! We are all on our own journey of finding what gets us to where we need to be in the time we need to be. There is no set timeframe or timeline that dictates when we need to be there! I gave my boyfriend a book to read so he could better understand me and he appreciates it and is working on wrapping his head around how he can better be there as a support for me and I font have to hide everything from him. I'm also reading my manuscript to him too. It's really growing our relationship. This is such a hard disease to share a not be afraid of people not getting espically those closest too you! Peace goodwill and best of luck!