I've been trapped in sn Ed for 31 years and can't explain to you a mire miserable life path to be stuck in. I've tried everything to loose wt and been hospitalized near death countless tines and in treatment also near death 7 times. This if anything if you are young us something you want to try and get yourself out of asap and stop the diet trials and being so hard an yourself . Learn now to cut yourself some slack I wish I had years ago when I had a breif holding pattern of normallacy. Don't let yourself fall back because it is harder and harder each time you slip into tho abyss of this disease. Please vest of luck!