Tell someone - like a therapist. I sometimes feel like that - not sure if something happened or if I dreamed it and I don't have any behavioral health issues. Most times there are witnesses or there is "proof" that something happened.

My husband has chunks out of his back from where he was beaten with a belt, scars in his hands where he tried to protect his brothers.

If you talk about it - then it isn't so frightening. It puts it all out in the light.