Mrs bee has a great post. I've been stuck in a terrible place for way too many years normal is different for everyone depending on a lot of factors and your best bet would be is to talk to a nutrionist and talk out your concerns and fears and see what she or he advises for you specifically ! I can empathize with the wanting to be consumed with thinking about calories. Matter of fact there've consumed my life for three decades and I'd do anything to change it anything! I'm miserable every day bc it's all I think about I been in and out of more hospitals than I can count, I can't work, I'm depressed all the time and I work intensively with a T but can't stop obsessing! This is no way to live. I pray you find someone who can coach you on what is appropriate for you and you are happy. God bless you many prayers your way !