i've been fine for months now, as in freakishly content.
checked my university tracker after sending them my portfolio a week ago - 'UNSUCCESSFUL'
i got this sudden, overwhelming urge to do everything i've managed to keep at bay:
cry, scream, binge, be sick, SI, go on a bender, sex, run away, withdraw, go into foetus mode
it's hella scary. i have an interview with another university this monday and i don't know if i can do.
rejection is killer, man