Not sure, but reading what she said I wondered if she was refering to what you needed to do at that time was punish her? and to talk about that rather than that she thought you were really leaving

I'm not sure what they know I had one remove me totally from his books when I mentioned I wanted to quit everything in a state of sheer panic; I was so wound up and he acted on it and it hurt so much even though I guess he did what I said I wanted