No Rainbowzz, I am not okay and neither is Snowbird.

We had a VERY difficult session with T. The only thing worse than having to live through abuse is having to relive it through therapy.

I wanted to show him the writing I did about the incident at work, but he made me tell him instead. I cried and sweated and trembled. He took me to my safe place with hypnosis, Snowbird had come out by then.

I am so tired. I have a major headache. I don't think words can possibly describe how bad I feel right now. They could not possibly do any of these feeling justice. I really feel like I've been v******d again. I don't think T knows what I went through. I am going to go upstairs and cry.

I am going to use my light and sound machine for relaxation, I took a BIG pill, had some hot chocolate, snuggled with my husband like a big baby, and going to bed.

I am sorry that I cannot look at the other posts right now. I don't think I could possibly handle it and could not possibly give anyone the proper support they need.

I am truly sorry. I am truly sorry. I am not doing well and have to try and regroup.

Love to all,
Songbird, Daisy, Shaylee, and Snowbird

No, we are not okay.